Today I start to forget and let go of the past. It served its purpose and now I must move on.
This is the hardest year of my life without a doubt. Most people wouldn’t even know it that I’m just a body of sadness hurting so much. I do my best everyday to not get sad or fall into depression. I won’t let that happen. But I have to say it’s been a challenge this time around. I miss my dad so much. This is definitely not how I imagined life would turn out to be. I still can’t comprehend that my dad is no longer with my mom and me. I keep hearing from others that this is part of life. Well you try to live my life and try to accept that. You can’t and you don’t want to. I want my dad back.
I’m going to try something new starting today. Letting go of the past and hopefully forget somethings that aren’t of much use now to remember. It’s been the biggest burden in my life. I can’t let go of anything. I keep it trapped in my head. I feel that I shouldn’t forget those hardships. But I think they served their purpose and have long expired now. So the plan is to let go and start living a life without burden and sadness of the past. It’s been making it hard for me to deal with my dads passing. I need to let go and take care of myself, my mom, and my brothers who I love incredibly.
I hope that this time next year I can laugh with happiness that I was able to accomplish this.