Effort
Today has been such a lousy day when it comes to self motivation. I’ve been in a rut for quite a long time when it comes to all sorts of aspects of doing things, or putting effort into doing things.
I have plenty of ideas of things that I’ve wanted to do and things that I need to do but when it comes to doing it, I just say “forget about it and do it tomorrow”. Then tomorrow comes and I’m like alright, lets give it a go. I actually try and go at it but after an hour I just say “Ok, I think I’ve done well and I’ll continue tomorrow”. But again I have a relapse where I get lost in just surfing the web or watching the Fox Soccer Channel and become numb of soccer facts that I’ve heard already and I don’t need to hear it again. But I’m just to lazy to jump back to those projects that I started and reside to continue to watch more soccer news.
It sucks, it really does that I’m in this moment. I won’t go into saying I wish this could stop or want family or friends to tap me on the back and say “It’s ok it’ll pass”. I just want to get stuck in what ever it is that I’m working on and not stop until I know I should stop.
I know I don’t have any discipline like I once use to have. Thats what is lacking in my foundations or in my mentality. Not sure where it was that it started dissolving away but I just know I need to pick it back up and not let it go again. I remember once telling my mom that I would start doing things much more on my own and be more self efficient. So if I ever had a opportunity to do that, this is the time to do it.
There are quite a few plans that I have ahead of me that I’ve been wanting to do. For starters, I plan to move out on my own and not live or share an apartment with my older brother. I’ve been on my own before when I arrived to Houston in 2001, but that was a short stint. So this considers some planning and effort to do in my part.
To finish off this post, I need to get my discipline back on track, write down what I want to accomplish and when it needs to be accomplished. Focus on not creating excuses as to why I want to take a break, stop working or starting on something else.
“Get it done cry baby!”
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Hey Carlos just wanted to let you know that I to sometimes feel that way. It takes a lot of personal energy to commit to the task at hand. No matter the level of stress it puts on you, once you get it done YOU WILL feel better about it. So just remember to move forward and not get stuck in one place for to long. What are you doing now? Nothing? Well, should you just keep doing nothing and hope that your problems disolve into nothing or are you going to give it the effort it requires to move yourself forward? Think on it for a minute! The sooner you get your ass moving the faster you will get to where you’re going! So, run Carlos, run! Time waits for no one!
You’re spot on man. I’m now in a much better mentality even though things are not coming to me as easily as they once use to. But this is my opportunity to take an run with it and show my self worth. Thanks hermano, siempre puedo confiar en ti.